hm. got stuff to blog about today.
school started ok.
but this morning, like every morning, i wake up, and debate with myself. the dread of going to school is getting greater every morning. every single morning.
i think of excuses to not go to school. i think of reasons of why i should go to school. like this morning. the reason i went to school today was to get my emath paper back. fuck that.
pe was ok. ran 4rounds. which was crap. i'd do 5 next time. and work my way up to sprinting 10. haha. seriously. im going on a low carb diet. no carbs after 5pm. then exercise more. like go running or sth.
chinese was interesting. monica will make a fantastic housewife. haha. it adds up.
lit was ok. didnt write too much. too stoned already.
yes. emath. i got 41/50. FUCK JANNY LEE. dont fucking care if its her birthday whatever shit. i got the fucking question clearly correct, but OH NO! you're such a FUCKING BLIND DINGBAT who cant tell the difference from a 5 and a 6. like FUCK YOU. correct a number to 3dp. like who will get wrong? me. THANKS TO YOUR FUCKING BLINDNESS. $%&%^&U$*%$
then assembly was cool. had some talk on UWC. i think i'd try and apply. no harm trying. haha.
then fuck that dennis tang guy. drone on and on for 20mins without getting to the point. ughs.
took a cab home. was too pissed to take bus.
hmm. was on friendster just now. read max's profile. woah. cheem. i admire his style of writing. its like pwoah. power. if only i had the ability to scribe my thoughts out like him.
the thought process involved. i could have millions of thoughts in my head. but its all unorganized, and i can never seem to pen them down. it kinda sucks sometimes. never being able to fully express yourself. its fustrating.
the question that has been nagging at me the past few days. what is my purpose in life? i was asking that to myself again in church yesterday. what is my purpose? i was having those sort of internal conversations. yes. wont elaborate much.
so was talking to tiffany about it today when we were walking back to class. it was quite cool. talking to tiffy always gives me a wider scope on the different views and stuff.
still feeling kinda horrid now. again. same problems. same shit, day after day. some stuff, i've managed to put behind me. ive come to realise that there's nothing i can do to change the situation. [maybe i can, but its not worth it] so ive decided to let it go. take things as it comes. and if it doesnt come, too bad for me. im moving on. a new phase, of acceptance. and of understanding. yes.
haha. and the same old problem that plages us all. the confusion of the actions of the opposite sex.
LOLS. its confusing. all the mixed signals. dont like it. sometimes, the person means something, but you tend to read too much into it? but sometimes, if you dont read into it, maybe the guy you like also likes you but because you didnt read into his signs, nothing happens. so when you find out that he did like you. . that feeling really really really sucks. [s-no.] haha. so as with currently. i dont want to read too much into nothing. wont it be much easier if everyone just confessed without all the cat and mouse chasing? sighs. but then, where would all the fun be? hms. interesting.
i feel like going mass again today. yesterday's mass really cheered me up. going to church brings me peace of mind for that short while. though, yes, still get distracted. but spending time with God. =D
actions speak louder than words. my new motto.
anyway. my church is like rich la can? we just installed a new walkway from the chuch to the canteen. and the top is like glass? retiled the area outside the canteen too. repainted all the church buildings. install SIX flat screen tv's inside the church. put in a security camera. like woah. so much change.
im traditional. i still prefer the book method. technology is good, but not when it changes too much. maybe like good speakers in church so everyone can hear the mass clearly. yea thats good. [my church uses 'bose' speakers. lols] but i think the tv thing is too much. paper is still the best. technology in unreliable.
technology. look at what happen to all thoses hacked blogs. once its deleted, and you're not a famous blogger like xiaxue, your entries are GONE. its sad. like ms teo said. its FREE. so what does it matter to them if your blog gets hacked? you're not paying for the service, why should they care? it does not belong to you.
anyway. ive written so much today. ive more thoughts. but i dont think anyone would read until here. so i'd stop now. share your views. <3
'and after all, you're my wonderwall' -oasis
